On A Road To No Where

Half the time I feel like I am on a road to no where. Some days I am fine other days my anxiety goes haywire. I have to call and make doctor appointments for my daughter, make her a dentist appointment, make me an appointment to get in to get all of my medical crap transferred. These are times my anxiety starts going nuts, and it doesn’t matter what I do it doesn’t get better.

Often times I really do feel like my anxiety is going to win. I feel like I failed as a mother, and a wife. Although I know this isn’t my fault. The thing that scares me the most, is my daughter is going to end up like me. I don’t want her to be scared to do small things like make phone calls.

I don’t want her to worry about going to the store. Simple things are so hard for me to do. Anxiety controls my life, and I just want my life back. I want to be normal, I don’t want to freak out over little things. I know I said before with medication is can help. However, I am on medication and it helps some, but sometimes it helps none.