As I sit here, I am having one of my wonderful attacks. I hate feeling the way I feel most the time. I try to keep my mind on other things, that’s why I enter giveaways. Entering giveaways lets me focus on entering instead of everything else in my life. If you have ever had a panic attack you probably know what I am talking about.
Through-out the day I have about 3 to 4 attacks. The symptoms include hot and cold flashes, nausea, and a deep emptiness in the pit of my stomach. When I get to feeling this way I just want to be left a lone. I want to drown in my own little world.
I recently started having a lot of headaches, I normally don’t have headaches. If you suffer from anxiety you know where I am coming from when I say anxiety controls my life. I cannot go out with my husband and have a good time because I freak, I cannot take my daughter to fun places because I freak. Simple trips to Memphis don’t happen because I freak.
Yesterday I went to Memphis for the first time by myself. This was not fun, I wanted to turn around and come home. But I knew I couldn’t I had an appointment and well if I didn’t show it wouldn’t have been good. I think I drove around the block for a good 20 minutes until I figured out what I had to do.
I hope to one day control my anxiety instead of it controlling me.